Thursday, March 12, 2009

Cha Cha Cha Chia and Dreams

"Happy Obama"


















"Determined Obama"


















How can you expect me to choose between the two?

I had a few weird dreams last night:
I was at a banquet and was looking for dessert, but only saw this one lame kind - maybe cheap cookies or something but grabbed one because baby has a sweet tooth. As people start filtering in to this hall and people I know surround me I see that there is now a plethora of sweets and I am insane with wanting to try all of them. I sat up there, on an elevated table near my father, trying to figure out how my fat ass it going to be cool about gorging on sweets, when it is obvious I don't need sweets. The dream was really just one intense craving with my father thrown in for the WTF factor. He shows up more often than I like in my dreams. Always weird, rarely speaks, and usually judging me.

The other dream I remember because I think I woke up crying. I have never woken up and cried from a dream. I have done my share of sobbing in my dreams, but it never carried over before. Mark was spooning me and I started to feel pain in my lower lower back and tried to tell him but he kept clinging to me and I realized the pain was him sinking his teeth in to my ass and I was starting to cry in pain hoping he would stop but he hung on no matter how hard I buckled and cried. I woke up and still felt the pain a bit and it took a minute to realize it was a dream and choked back some tears. Now, before you go analyzing this and feeling bad for our relationship you should know that before we fell asleep he tried to spoon me and I had to remind him that I can't sleep that way right now. I feel bad, but while pregnant this time I just don't feel comfortable being touched a lot. It was probably like that w Sadie too, but I was single and it never came up. Oh, and the pain was likely my sciatica.

2 comments:

Krissyface said...

oh, I'm sorry I laughed when I thought of Mark biting you on the heinie.

I had sciatica when preggers, it was hell on earth. No mofos on the damn train would get up for me and give me their seat, even though it felt like I had a pole driving up my back at all times.

After labor I was such a physical and emotional mess, I was walking with a limp and my sister called me Long John Silver. Its true though, I looked like I had a wooden leg.

Accupuncture was the only thing that got rid of it. Prenatal accupuncture.

Oh, Kim...not too long now...

krista zee said...

i feel your Sciatica babe